Decisions Decisions...

So, it's decision making time again.

woohoo!

or not.

I have just come to the realisation that I have 2 weeks left of my 4 month contract and I DO NOT know where to from here.

This is so unlike me it's not even funny. Admittedly, I've been waiting for this day to come but now that it's approaching I don't know. There's just too much stuff to sort out and do...list is always never ending. And it's not fun stuff either - it's the responsible, adult, crappy stuff - the kind that makes you long for your student days (well, mine at least) where your biggest worry was getting DP for your exam, ensuring you pass the exam so your parents don't kick your ass...(not that I've not passed an exam bar one, proper, typical responsible first born child that I am :s :p)

And then of course, seeing as I'm just another saffa in the country of the queen...there's visa restrictions blah blah (boring stuff) to bear in mind.

And don't forget...the thing that enables it all...money!

I think too much for my own health and well being. I need to think less...and thinking this just goes to show how much I over-think! Aaaah!

I don't regret coming here. I didn't know entirely what to expect - and so far, it's generally been a great experience.

But there's things you don't tell people back home, gloss it over - or at least attempt to.

I've realised -
I NEED the SUN for my health, well being and sanity!
I NEED open spaces...and windows that can open more than like 10cm.
I do not like feeling confined, not being able to see outside because the office is an enclosed one...

I must just get out my head.
File away these thoughts in a deep, dark, impossible to reach drawer in my brain - lock it. and lose the key. (chances of that one happening :s)

Right.
Time to try get out of head...
and believe that things will be sorted. because I have no plan. and I simply just do not know. and it's scary!

For real now.
Stepping
...............out
....................of
........................my
.............................head!